drugs and alcohol

they are a bitch. they can make you dependent on them and take your personality away. they create monsters that cant be stopped. but they can. love really isnt enough but it definately helps. my husband got addicted to pain meds after back surgery and became someone totally opposite of his true self in the meantime. although he was never violent, he still did things that he knew were wrong but didnt stop. he did them to push me away because he thought he would never be able to get away from the monster he had become. now, writing a bad check on a closed account has him away to come home anywhere between this coming july and january. drugs and alcohol may help in the short run but they are definately not worth your soul, your family, your self. if you choose to drink, please do it for the right reasons, if there are any. dont do it to mask pain thats too hard to deal with sober. all that does is bring you farther into the monster. love can conquer it. the addicts love of himself. now if we could just get him out of there and back home. the monster is gone and my love is back inside. please let him come home now.

its been a while

so havent written in a while. things did turn for the worse shortly after my last post and he went away last august. politics are holding him back from coming home next month. this state is shit. they dont realize that their decisions to wait to make a decision until after the election are hurting peoples lives, families of those who are inside, not just those that are there. our next would-be gov doesnt care. he absolutely hates inmates and their families. thinks we dont vote too, or that we just dont matter. we have a petition going around and have about 3000 signatures, now we just have to wait until the lazy congress decides to come back from their summer vacation, even though the state is still left without a budget and hundreds of teachers are being layed off. the most vulnerable people in our state, children, the poor, the disabled, they are the ones that are suffering right now, not the damn politicians. makes sense, right...hold inmates for 6mos longer that they have the past 30+ years spending approx 5mil extra on their housing while we have teachers and human services screwed with no jobs or money to keep them afloat. well, its an election year so dont expect anything that could be looked upon as even remotely detrimental being done. someone has to make the tough decisions regardless if they will be here in jan. personally, i would vote for someone that made those hard, unpopular decisions when they were needed instead of waiting and waiting and pretending that everything will work itself out. politicians of il...get off your asses and get this state back on track! NOW, not in sept when you feel like coming back to work. and if you do come in for more sessions during the summer, you shouldnt get paid. no one in the private sector would get paid overtime to do work they were supposed to have done already months before. figure it out and stop using this damn election to hold our loved ones captive any longer than you already have them.