the final straw

i think i have hit the end. today i find out my entire relationship has been all lies. yes, the 2 yr old girl who he previously stated numerous times was NOT his daughter actually is. one day her mother and her just picked up and left, not telling him where they went. he had even attended the birth and took care of her from birth. this takes away the whole thing that we were doing this for the first time together. now its like she is a replacement for her. he had a dream supposedly that the other little girl was killed by her mother and it made him want to commit suicide. the fact that all he does is lie doesnt bother him at all. a dream is what gets to him. i am SO angry that i cant see straight!!!!! and i dont think i can continue a so-called relationship with someone i dont even really know. i think it is time to end it and restart my life elsewhere. i cant do it on my own here and i really dont want to be anywhere near this person he has become, or i guess has been all along but hid it so he wouldnt be alone. i am part of a broken family with a step child and everything that i thought i had not signed up for. although i love my daughter with all my heart i really wish that we would not have had her so that she wouldnt have to go through all of this. not that i wish she wasnt born but i just wish she would have another father. that way she wouldnt have to deal with all of this crap later in life. i dont feel as torn as i did before about wanting to leave because i think that i want it more now than ever. i think that i have to do it for me because we have passed a crossroads that leads down 2 different roads that i really dont want to take. i dont want to be a divorced single mother. but i also dont want to be married to this person. this is not who i married and i believe now that the person i thought he was was either never really in existance or is gone for good. this person who is here now is not anyone that i would ever choose to even talk to. dont know what to do but think that i have to make a major change. i think i have to quit my job and move home with my mom once again. its the only thing i can do at this point i think.